Thursday, January 26, 2012

Single Mom?!?

So obviously I am not a single mother.  I have a husband that lives in the same house as me…or at least is suppose to. Now a days it seems like I spend more time alone then with him. This whole night shift thing is really getting to both of us. Besides that he is also taking online classes to get his bachelors degree.  So basically our day looks like this. Colby get home about 5am bed by 5:30, I'm up with Harp between 7 and 7:30 and then we have breakfast. I spend the morning taking care of the kids getting them fed and dressed. Then maybe some dishes, laundry, cleaning, bills…whatever needs to be done. Colby gets up about 11-11:30 and check his homework. I make lunch for us. After which the kids go down for a nap, Colby does homework and I do more housework. The kids wake up basically in time to see Colby leave for work. Then its playtime, supper, bath, and bedtime. Not only do we not get to spend time together, he doesn't get to see the kids much or help with them. Even if he is awake I don't feel like I can ask him to help because he is working on school. Hopefully this changes soon with a job or position switch but for now I will put up with it because it mean I get to stay home and raise the kids which is what both of us want.

We are still working on the whole potty training thing. She isn't there yet but I do feel like we are getting closer, I hope. Today we only had 3 accidents, two of were while she was eating in a high chair. The other time she wet her pants a little but then peed and pooped in the potty.  What makes we think we are getting somewhere is when I ask her if she has to go potty she will tell me yes when she has to go and no when she doesn't. Next we have to work on her telling me she has to go so I don't have to constantly ask her. The one thing about doing potty training the way we are, no diapers just underwear, is there is a lot of laundry. I have to do at least one load everyday to wash her underwear to make sure she has enough for the day.

I have also started working out some. I have gotten a workout game for Zumba plus the Just Dance video game. I try to do those in the morning right away or during nap time. This will hopefully help me lose the weight I want but man am I tired. Once Waylon starts sleeping through the night or just longer periods of time at night should help. I really am looking forward to sleeping more then just 3-4 hours at a time.

Speaking of sleep…off I go.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Frustrations

Lately I have found myself getting very frustrated. It really came to the fore front today. First off I get frustrated that Colby isn't around that much and that he can't help out then and the little time he is here and awake it doesn't seem like he helps me out. The dog is suppose to be his responsibility. I don't want the dog, especially in the house, and I don't have time to take care of him when I am trying to take care of the kids.

The dog is another HUGE frustration for me.  He is super needy. He is always on me or Harper and standing right in front of us while we are trying to walk. He thinks he is more important then the kids and is always trying to get between us and the kids and never watches out for the kids. The other day he even stepped on Waylon trying to get to where Colby was. Today he kept chewing on everything like crayons, Harper's toys, and shoes. His tooth got caught on Colby's ear today and made it bleed. Some days I don't even know why we have him. The only person that really wanted to get him or have him doesn't even like him sometimes. Our "free" puppy has definitely been costing us a lot of money and time.

The things that really adds extra frustration that isn't normally there is with Harper. We are trying to potty train her. We have been casually trying for a few months but this week we started to really hit it hard. The method we are trying is just cutting out diaper all together expect at night. This has led to a lot of accidents and peeing in her underwear/pants. This is only the second day of doing this and I am getting frustrated. She has been peeing in her pants right after we get done "going" potty. Sometimes I just want to yell at her but I know I can't. Its not that she is going in her pants on purpose. She does go in the potty sometimes and to help her want to go in the potty we made a little chart and every time she goes in the potty she gets a sticker to put on it. Once the chart is full she can get something special from the store. I know she likes getting the stickers so hopefully she starts understanding their purpose a little more. Another plus is she told me she had to go tonight. We had just left the bathroom and were going to play in the playroom. As soon as we got into the room she said "potty potty" but by the time I put Waylon in the swing right next to me and grabbed her she had already started to pee and it got all over my hand. That was frustrating but I tried to look at it in a positive why like she actually told me she had to go potty instead of me asking her or just taking her.

Hopefully tomorrow goes better.  It is another day and the more we do this potty training with Harper the more she is suppose to understand what is going on. I just hope it doesn't take too long for her to understand/get it figured out. I'm definitely looking forward to the weekend and Colby being here to help out more.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

1 Month Already?!?

My baby boy is 1 month old!! It is crazy how fast that month went by. We were busy for a lot of his first month of life. Colby had his wisdom teeth taken out right before Christmas so he was in a lot of pain for a few days and not able to really eat anything.  Then of course we had Christmas. On Christmas day, we did presents at home, then church followed by presents at my parents house and ended the day with the Vostad Christmas at my cousin's house. The next day we left at 4:30am to head to Kansas. As soon as we got there we did presents with Colby's parents then headed to his Grandma Sherry's house then to his Grandma Judy and Grandpa Rudy's house. The next day we visited Colby's great grandfather and then had a very long lunch with Colby's best friend after which we headed home. A very busy and exhausting couple of days. We had a couple of nice days at home until at dog was hit by our neighbor on New Years Eve breaking his back leg. It is costing us a lot to get it fixed and Im not sure it would be worth it but Colby thought it would. I am still not convinced. He can be a huge pain when I already have to deal with two children. Life is just going going going.

All that going did not hinder Waylon's growth one bit. At his check up he was already up to 10lbs 13oz which put him into the 75th percentile. This is crazy to us since Harper was always in the low percentiles always around the 10th or 20th. They are so different already. Harper is trying to show us how independent she can be. She does not like to listen to us and when she doesn't get what she wants when she wants she throws a tantrum. It can be very frustrating but she is also a really good and really smart little girl too. We are just working through it day by day. We are also trying the whole potty training thing. She will go sometimes if we take her just sit and if I ask if she has to go sometimes she says yes but rarely actually goes. She won't tell us when she has to go but we are working on it.

Another big potential change for us is Colby's employment. He wants (along with me) to have a day job so badly. He is having some problems at his current job with  people above him complaining to others, besides him, about the work he is doing. However, no one will tell him what he needs to change which is very frustrating to him. He wants to go to day so badly that we have started to look for jobs for him in other cities and with other companies. There is position available with the same company he currently works for in the city my sister and brother both live in. A move like that would be a big deal for us. We also want to have buying a house in our near future. If we are going to buy a house we need to be brining in more money and be more financially stable.

I am hoping our future will turn out even better then we can imagine right now. We just need to have the faith that everything happens for a reason and everything will work its self out.