Tonight I am trying to get things packed up to go to Manhattan, KS this weekend. Colby and I met there while going to school at Kansas State University. Two of his brothers live there along with our niece and brothers girlfriend/baby momma. They moved into a new house at the beginning of the summer and are having a housewarming party this sunday. We don't really care much about the party. We mostly want to see everyone, especially our niece. We haven't seen then since June and she has grown a lot and has finally started to crawl. Another thing is no one came up for Harpers birthday and we want them to have a relationship with her and Colby one with his brothers. The hope is they will see us making an effort to keep a relationship and to just be a part of their lives. Then in return they will show that they care more about us and want to visit us up here too. Only time will tell on that one.
We wont be seeing his parents this weekend because they aren't coming out for the party. I think that is fine because in two weeks they are coming up here to visit and sometimes its nice to just hang out with the older siblings. However, his parents don't always get that. His dad thinks he can be just one of the boys now that they are older and is just trying to be their friend a lot of times. He can really turn the mood weird though, especially for me. Both of them are just weird around me for some reason and don't know what to say to me, which in turn makes me feel weird towards them and I don't know what to say to them. Its a vicious cycle that never seems to end. His step-mom just gets mad if we go to Kansas and don't see them. She doesn't understand that with his brothers living in one town and them in another we can't always make it work to see everyone. But she doesn't see it that way. She can be kind of selfish and when it come to who Colby visits, in her mind it should always be her first and for most but to Colby thats not always the case.
Anyways back to this weekend. I really hope everything turns out good and we have a lot of fun. I like visiting Manhattan. It brings back a lot of memories but it is weird at the same time because where my life was when we decided to leave and where it is now is so completely different. Honestly so are the lives of all his brothers. No one is dating the same person they were back then. One of them has a baby and another one is getting married. Looking back and going back to somewhere with some many memories, good and bad, makes you really evaluate your current life and how far you have come, at least in my case. I know I haven't come that far in everything like the relationship with Colby's parents. I think it might be worse then before except they aren't as vocal to him about their dislike for me since at this point they can't do anything since we are already married but did they really try to stop that from happening but that is a whole other can of worms that I haven't forgotten but am trying to get past so I won't go into it.
I won't be writing this weekend so Monday I will probably have a report about how the weekend went and our many adventures from this exciting thing I call my life.
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